2 to the TWO

THANK YOU ALLAH. SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH.

Birthday shout out to me..!!!

3rd October 1991 ->> 3rd October 2013

22 years old

Konologi Kisah Hidup Ku.

• 'Zaman' Kanak-kanak

Aku dilahirkan di Hospital Keningau, Sabah dan membesar sehingga umur ku 2tahun lebih. 9months 9days living in my mom's womb (rahim ibu)...tendang perut mak, kacau mak tidur, minta ikut mak makan minum (haha.) , main dengan tembuni sendiri..masha Allah, best nyaaa..I'm not sure how long my family took time live in Keningau but we've moved to Sandakan, Sabah till I'm the age of 11years old..during my age of 12, I live in Kota Kinabalu till now as a duty of my father which is as a policeman...I don't know how to imagine and describe how Allah 'creat it' with full of bless. thank you Allah, till now You still gives me a chance to breath the free fresh  air...Sabah, I can still feel the fresh air. yeah, STILL. hope for forever till my next generaion. amin. Jom tengok gambar bawah tu walaupun curi  ambil dari google.com I love the picture...it looks so traditional and historical, I love my hometown.. =)

• 'Zaman' Keremajaan

Since I moved to Kota Kinabalu and living there till my current age (now), thank to Allah I've manage to finish my primary and secondary school  on 2008...and start from 2009 I've done my pre-diploma achievement, 2010 I do my Diploma in UiTM, Sabah..now, I still furthering my studies in the same line of course which is BBA (Hons). Finance in UiTM, Sabah also...I feel blessed and I hope for a better achievement for a long term memory...to be shown to my children if I get marriage, to be proud as a daughter to my mother and father and of course to my siblings too..insha Allah...

• 'Zaman' Penantian

I know I'm not a perfect human being but I also have my own dreams...to have a better future husband who can lead me to a better wife and of course a daughter (solehah)...to have a good and stable job for my future life, so thay I can have my own a car, land and a house, money and I want to share part my 'rezeki' with my families..I want to travel all over the world, Malaysia is my first visiting place since I've no opportunity to travel each of state including Sabah. I want both of my parents go for Haji before they 'leave' me and my four other sibings...and I have a big dream to have my own business..I hope so, one day. Insha Allah.

thank you. :)

Pengajian Di Tahun Ke-2

9th Sept. 2013, Isnin. Tarikh keramat bermulanya semester baru untuk tahun dua (semester4) bagi kursus BBA (Hons.) Finance di UiTM, Sabah...pensyarah baru (ada juga yg msh sama) , pelajaran baru dan yg pasti semua muka-muka baru lama...hihihi

oh first but not least, welcome back to school to me and the others especially to the new incomers students...I hope we can put the name of UiTM to a higher level among the universities...as what our beloved 'dad', Dato' Sahol said..insha Allah..

Semester kali ni agak mencabar dari semester yg sebelumnya...I'm the one who is not the best student in the class, not also the stupid one..but I know, the word of "stupid" is not that bad because from being a stupid or in a proper word we called it as un-clever, it must be turn to a clever one..isn't it? Be positive instead of being negatively..."A success person come from a failure at the beginning", keep this word when you feel wants to giving up. I keep it.

Jatuh bangun..kalah menang..gagal kemudian lulus...ada yg berjaya dan ada yg tidak..itu lumrah dlm proses pembelajaran, same goes to me..I've been experienced it before, till now..kadang-kadang sudah gagal pun ada lagi gagal, kenapa?? am I did not perform well?? or I'm not prepared at all..??? I cried and felt regret to my self..seems wanna quit for this battle..I've giving all my 100% to do it well but seems like I can't manage to get a satisfied result...pity me and I hate my self so much..!!! why they succeed but I'm not..? (sad feeling)

Setiap orang ada kelebihan dan kekurangan masing-masing, mungkin ini ketentuan Illahi bagi aku kegagalan sedangkan aku berusaha sehabis yg mungkin...dan mungkin juga Dia mahu aku tahu, yg aku leka dengan kesenangan dan kelapangan masa yg aku ada sepanjang semester lalu sehinggakan aku suka melengah-lengahkan waktu...membuang masa...tidur...bersosial (jalan dgn kawan2 sekali-sekala sampai lupa assignment masih belum siap, quiz test berderet, due date presentation pun dekat..hmm)...dan yg paling penting, aku lupa Dia yg Maha Pemberi...kejamnya aku, kerdilnya aku..!

Alhamdulillah...syukur, aku masih tidak lupa diri. I still have family who wanna see me success in my future life. I still have friends who always support me and giving me strength to not easily giving up. I still have lecturers who never failed to see her/his student like me that faced low self-esteem in studies. I still have the one who loved me and always remain to stay and say I can do my best like the others. and, I have Allah..the only one who is the best Creator. Result sem lepas tidak lah seteruk mana tapi aku rasa teruk di kalangan rakan-rakan yg lain..dan itu bukan penentu nasib aku pada masa akan dtg sebab peluang untuk menebus kekalahan sentiasa ada..Gagal sekali bukan bermakna gagal selamanya. (feel bless)

This semester, I have 3subject calculation and 5subject theory...I know I can score, yes I can..!!!

To who ever felt down, here are some picture that will built again your low self-esteem. Let's start and begin you new spirit.

take 1

take 2

take 3

"Never give up until you're given out all your very best.

It's better to fail trying than wondering what could have happened if you tried".

-unknown person.

Thank you everybody for keep reading, have a blast day ahead. lots of love.

Delay Entry Part 2 - We Dare To Care (Charity Run Event)

Agak lama juga saya ambil masa untuk buat entry ni kan? kesian blog 'behabuk' tiada yang singgah...hihi

Let's start. Actually this entry I suppose to write it on last May..did you know May is a month of Stroke's Awareness..? some of you might know and some are not, isn't it? yes, me too..haven't realize about that..so, "WE DARE TO CARE CHARITY RUN" is all about how deep and far we care on our health, especially about stroke. My faculty in Bach. of Business Administration (Finance/Economy/Marketing) has decided to do an event about stroke's awareness as for our subject's requirement. It such a tiring day/week/month to prepare for the event. Misunderstanding, arguing, upset, mad and some typical emotions happened. But, in the end...it's succeed. Games, talk, food store, pre-love stuff store and the important activity is run for stroke's patient and all the public member. Ups, I forgot to mention as the program has been doing at River Park, Stadium Likas, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. All the money that has been collected from each activities will be given to NASAM.  ;)

Here some tips you can gain about stroke's awareness. Which is NASAM who had being cooperate with our program during that event. Thank you NASAM. Share and live in a healthy life dear people.

CLIK HERE. 

Enjoy the picture guys. ;)

Before the event :: Preparation 

2days to make the preparation under each of exco's.

During the event :: 7.00am - 6.00pm

1. Run (stoke's patient, public for age under 18 and above)

2. Talk from NASAM

3. Kids Unduk Ngadau

4. On going games

5. Car Show

6. Face Painting

7. Drawing for kids

8. Rock/Wall Climbing

9. Food store, Pre-love item store

Self esteem :: Time for challenge my self.

That t-shirt that I wear is for the event.

3 walls has been climbed. I know I can do it bebeh. haha.

the end.

Delay Entry Part 1 - Graduation Day

Alamdulillah, tarikh bersejarah pada bulan Mei 2013, secara rasminya saya adalah GRADUAN UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MARA. I will not write too much since I was feeling un-well today, pardon me. So let's move on with all these pictures that I dedicate for all of you. 

Tempat Pengajian : UiTM, Sabah

Fakulti : Pengajian Perniagaan

Bidang/Kos : Diploma Perbankan

Tempoh Pengajian : 3 Tahun (Dec'2009 - Oct'2012)

Speechless when my name was announced to get my scroll but that's a reward for 3years. 

Syukur alhamdulillah, thank you Allah. 

I wish I could bring my mom too, but she can't afford to come. But I am glad my dad came for my Graduation's Day while his condition is not really good. The happiest but a bit of touched part during this moment is, my dad cried when he seeing me wearing my 'jubah' and I was cried too. I love you dad, and I love mom more too. This is for both of you.

Before, during and after received our scroll. 

Inside and outside the hall.

Happy to meet them :)

My bff. Fendy, congratulation for the offering of furthering study in Bach. In Finance at UiTM, KK for this coming September. I hope you take the offer dude, you must! Then we meet and study together like before again as a crime partner. hahaha. 

And my Penang's Girl, Adibahtun who studying at UiTM, Puncak Alam for Bach. In Human Resource.

Both of them who always cheer up my day.

After received our scroll.

My classmates, some of them are still persuading their studies in Degree level and some are working. 

Part of receiving a number.

The ladies are waiting for entering the big hall of Dewan Agong Tuanku Canselor. 

My classmates, one of them is the one who got Anugareh Naib Canselor,

congrats Alang (lady who wear the purple hijab), you deserved it. :)

Yeah!! My favorite picture of pictures.

 I can't join them during this moment since I have rush to going back to hotel 'coz my dad is not feeling very well. Not even have some time to meet them all, I am really sorry guys.

One find day, we will meet again, inshaa-Allah.

CONGRATULATION TO ME AND MY FRIENDS.

NOW, WE ARE OFFICIALLY A DIPLOMA HOLDER.

LET'S WAIT FOR THE NEXT LEVEL AND NEXT BATTLE IN DEGREE LEVEL.

.THE END.

Un-deniable things.

Oh Allah, please gives me a strength. . . .

People can see me smile, but not my real happiness.

I can't move on, but I have to.

Sometimes it hurts me deeply when I realize that "IT" doesn't bring any changes into our life.

I miss the old us.

The strong bones among us.

Oh Allah, please send us some guidance. . . .

If we can't turn back,

at least bring back the HAPPINESS of our family.

Like before.

Oh Allah, please protect my parents, my siblings and all the families. . . .

I love them all.

They are my only one and everything.

Especially to my mother, who always be patient and be our lover listener from a far distance.

To our dear father, let him be strong to fight with his illnesses. 

Lead me and my other four siblings for a better ummah, person, future and life.

Oh Allah, with all my heart and soul, I am bagging YOU. . . .

Allah Maha Besar, Maha Pemurah, Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang, Maha Mendegar.

. . .Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. . . 

KEJUTAN di bulan Mei

Hai penulis/pembaca blogger tegar :) alhamdulillah, kita masih diberi peluang dan diberi nafas untuk menikmati pemberian-NYA yg tiada tandingan. Syukur Ya Allah.

First thing first, TAHNIAH buat Barisan Nasional di atas kemenangan yg diperoleh bagi PRU Ke-13 untuk terus memerintah dan meneruskan perjuangan bagi membela nasib rakyat Malaysia. Pada saya, kemenangan majoriti ini bukan lah sebagai tunggak utk mereka sebagai wakil rakyat untuk terus bermegah-megah dan menunjuk-nunjuk pada semua ahli pembangkang tetapi sebagai ia dpt dijadikan satu persaingan hebat antara perti kerajaan dan pembangkang agar membina dan memajukan lagi tahap pembangunan/ekonomi/pendidikan/perniagaan/perindustrian/etc. Hapuskan taktik kotot, fikiran cetek dan bahasa basi yang sememangnya tiada manfaat dan hasil yg boleh disumbangkan kpd negara. Kita sebagai rakyat Malaysia harus berbangga krna masih hidup dlm aman dan damai jika dibandingkan dgn negara Afrika, Iraq, etc. Jika kita hanya sibuk menjatuhkan kredibiliti orang lain, sampai bila-bila pun hidup kita tiada kemajuan. Jika kita asyik komplain sana sini seolah-olah semua pun hanya kita saja yg betul, rasanya cermin diri dulu dan belajar untuk terima pandangan org lain sebelum kita mengkritik org lain. Jika hidup ini semua punhanya mahu percuma saja, lebih baik tinggal di luar negara Malaysia untuk hidup secara percuma sampai bila-bila, (itu pemalas namanya!). "SEBELUM BERTANYA APA SUMBANGAN NEGARA PADA KITA, TANYA DIRI SENDIRI DULU APA SUMBANGAN KITA PADA NEGARA." ups!! hehe. Kalau rasa-rasa asyik mahu tukarrr saja, baca balik buku sejarah di mana titik permulaannya Malaysia dan fikir siapa yg lebih banyak bg sumbangan. :) 

P/s- Tahniah buat uncle bagi kawasan Sulaman (N.10) dan Kota Belud  (P.169)

di atas kemenangan beliau berdua, perjuangan masih diteruskan!

Second thing will always be a second, alhamdulillah..dapat panggilan Peperiksaan Penolong Juruaudit W27 di bawah penyeliaan SPA (Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam Malaysia), dapat atau tidak belakang cerita, yg penting ambil pengalaman. Mudah-mudahan segala urusan selesai. 

COMING SOON, I will go for my Diploma Convocation on 13th May 2013 in UiTM, Shah Alam. I will update it after I come back from Shah Alam...can't wait for the precious day! :)

-SEE YOU ON MY NEXT ENTRY-

to be continue...

LAMARAN-ku diterima oleh UiTM.

how's life my dearest readers...emotion/physical ok? alhamdulillah...hidup ni tdk selalunya indah kan, kadang kita di bawah dan tidak juga selamanya akan berada di bawah sebab satu hari yg pasti, kita juga akan merasa berada di atas...yg penting, jangan mudah putus asa dan jangan sesekali menyalahkan takdir bila kita diuji baik dari segi pembelajaran, perhubungan, kemewahan, kekalahan dan sebagainya. 

First thing first, baru-baru ni kita dikejutkan dgn pencerobohan dari militan Philipina...saya sendiri yg berada jauh dr tempat kejadian amat bimbang dan takut, rasa marah dan geram jg bila ORANG YG TIDAK DIUNDANG telah masuk ke "rumah" kita di Lahad Datu,Sabah..mata tertutup tp hati di sana tempat mereka yg langsung tdk tidur dan berjaga, makan kita di sini tp mereka hanya sekadar mengalas perut, rehat kita di sini tp mereka pula mengerah tenaga menentang musuh Negara..tidak kira lah kita bangsa apa, dari negeri mana..ini tanah kita, tempat kita tinggal dan membesar, sama-sama lah kita mendoakan kesejateraan dan keselamatan bumi Sabah dan pejuang bangsa kita..Malaysia khususnya Negara tercinta kita..dengan rasa sedih dan hiba di atas gugurnya pejuang-pejuang kita yg mati terkorban kerana diserang hendap oleh bangsat penceroboh orang-orang Sulu, pengorbanan mereka akan dikenang oleh kami orang-orang Sabah...semoga roh mereka tenang, dan 'Syahid' buat mereka yg beragama Islam...amin.. (al-fatihah) ...Terima kasih PDRM dan ATM...

(Google image, edited by miss eira)

(Dr.Uji Mohammed, Ketua Bhg. Penyelidikan dan Jaringan UiTM Caw. Sabah. edited by miss eira)

Pada 8hb Mac, permohonan Ijazah UiTM diumumkan...malangnya permohonan saya ditolak, saya sedih dan menangis..parents/family tiada yg tahu..saya solat, saya berdoa, saya buat solat hajaat..pada hari yg sama saya buat panggilan ke HEA, UiTM Sabah bertanya soal penolakan permohonan saya..Puan Azura(yg membantu) terkejut saya gagal mendapat apa-apa permohonan..alhamdulillah, beliau bantu saya..dalam masa 4hari saya tunggu feedback dari HEA..a good news, alhamdulillah..syukur ke hadrat Illahi, masih diberi peluang utk melanjutkan pelajaran ke peringkat Ijazah di universiti yg sama (UiTM,Sabah). Thank you Allah, thank you UiTM. Puan Azura, Ketua Bhg. Hal Ehwal Akademik, beliau banyak membantu ketika permohonan saya ditolak..mungkin ini rezeki..In-shaa-Allah, akan berpuasa 'nazar' minggu hadapan...a bit nervous but of course I'm happy with this, especially my parents...masih banyak yg perlu dipelajari dan semestinya usaha utk memperbaiki diri adalah perkara yg utama perlu saya lakukan...semoga dipermudahkan..amin...

BBA (Hons.) Finance. I'm starting by semester3 since I'm a Diploma holder from UiTM, only 2years to go..3semester for tutorial, 1semester for pracktical. (edited by miss eira)

ok, rasanya agak panjang juga entry ni saya tulis kan...entah bila boleh ber-blog lagi, tunggu ada cerita lagi la kan..I hope you have a great life and make sure don't you ever feel up set if there's something hope that you haven't get yet..someday, it will be your turn..TRUST ME! :)

p/s : Teruskan berdoa utk keselamatan bumi Sabah.

Let gone be by gone.

some says, love can blind you,

some says, love can makes you happy...

some says, love give you the pain that no one can cure it,

some says, love have the power that no one can stop it...

some says, love is beautiful feeling,

some says, love is amazing..

some says, love gives the special memory that can't be erase,

some says, love gives the wonderful story that can't be leave..

...but...when the love comes with a permission to entire and being part of someone's life, why must you gone without permission and leaving like nothing more special could be happen??? Now...

I said, love had blind me to beware,

I said, love makes me feel miserable...

I said, love can't even cure the hurt of broken heart,

 I said, love gives me the power of move on...

I said, love will be beautiful if the honest has been put on it,

I said, love will be amazing if two people trust each other and promise that they will be always together...

I said, love can't be a special to be remember if one of you has broke the promise that you've made,

I said, love can't be such a wonderful if one of you has made a fool of the 'bone' that you've made...

...at the end...letting you go and find another one much better is the solution and hoping that I won't get the love like you gave...thank you for giving me a chance to know what is love.

here I want to share and give you a song to sing together with me, click Here and I hope you trust on "Patah Tumbuh, Hilang kan Berganti" -Malay's Quota. Have a good life people.  :)

p/s: special wrote by  me since I put

a new b/ground song theme for my blog.

Happy 2year 1week 1day to my blog.  :)