It was just a TEMPORARY

Hidup ini hanya sederhana saja...

tapi, hanya kita yang merumitkan dengan rencananya.

Aku sudah meningkat dewasa..

sudah pandai menafsir hidup yang entah betul ka tidak.

biar, biar apa kata mereka..

apa aku perlu kisah mulut yg "melopong" tak sudah-sudah.

ini aku tujukan khas pada mereka yang tidak tahu hargai HIDUP.

Dia ada otak genius, aku ada otak udang..

itu tafsiran aku lagi, siapa yg benar?

tapi jangan kau salah anggap sebab aku bukan salahkan kau,

aku salahkan diri aku yang mungkin kurang usahanya.

Menyesal? ya..tapi ada hikmahnya sebab aku banyak belajar.

Aku senyum sendiri.

Ketawa aku bersama mereka sampai ku lupa masalah seketika,

kadang ku rimas dek perangai mereka juga,

masing-masing dengan perangai nya, bosan.

itulah perihal kisah sebuah keluarga..

kau cari bila perlu, kau buang bila kau tak mahu.

Astaghfirullah (istighfaaarrr)...jauhi aku dari sifat itu.

Masa depan ku, bukan aku yang aturi..

aku cuma "penggerak", yang "memberi" itu hanya DIA.

risau..sebab aku belum tahu apa jadi nanti.

apa yang aku lalui sekarang sudah cukup terang untuk aku fahami yang nanti itu lagi rumit

wallahualam...

-hasil pena aku "dmz"

2 to the TWO

THANK YOU ALLAH. SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH.

Birthday shout out to me..!!!

3rd October 1991 ->> 3rd October 2013

22 years old

Konologi Kisah Hidup Ku.

• 'Zaman' Kanak-kanak

Aku dilahirkan di Hospital Keningau, Sabah dan membesar sehingga umur ku 2tahun lebih. 9months 9days living in my mom's womb (rahim ibu)...tendang perut mak, kacau mak tidur, minta ikut mak makan minum (haha.) , main dengan tembuni sendiri..masha Allah, best nyaaa..I'm not sure how long my family took time live in Keningau but we've moved to Sandakan, Sabah till I'm the age of 11years old..during my age of 12, I live in Kota Kinabalu till now as a duty of my father which is as a policeman...I don't know how to imagine and describe how Allah 'creat it' with full of bless. thank you Allah, till now You still gives me a chance to breath the free fresh  air...Sabah, I can still feel the fresh air. yeah, STILL. hope for forever till my next generaion. amin. Jom tengok gambar bawah tu walaupun curi  ambil dari google.com I love the picture...it looks so traditional and historical, I love my hometown.. =)

• 'Zaman' Keremajaan

Since I moved to Kota Kinabalu and living there till my current age (now), thank to Allah I've manage to finish my primary and secondary school  on 2008...and start from 2009 I've done my pre-diploma achievement, 2010 I do my Diploma in UiTM, Sabah..now, I still furthering my studies in the same line of course which is BBA (Hons). Finance in UiTM, Sabah also...I feel blessed and I hope for a better achievement for a long term memory...to be shown to my children if I get marriage, to be proud as a daughter to my mother and father and of course to my siblings too..insha Allah...

• 'Zaman' Penantian

I know I'm not a perfect human being but I also have my own dreams...to have a better future husband who can lead me to a better wife and of course a daughter (solehah)...to have a good and stable job for my future life, so thay I can have my own a car, land and a house, money and I want to share part my 'rezeki' with my families..I want to travel all over the world, Malaysia is my first visiting place since I've no opportunity to travel each of state including Sabah. I want both of my parents go for Haji before they 'leave' me and my four other sibings...and I have a big dream to have my own business..I hope so, one day. Insha Allah.

thank you. :)

Pengajian Di Tahun Ke-2

9th Sept. 2013, Isnin. Tarikh keramat bermulanya semester baru untuk tahun dua (semester4) bagi kursus BBA (Hons.) Finance di UiTM, Sabah...pensyarah baru (ada juga yg msh sama) , pelajaran baru dan yg pasti semua muka-muka baru lama...hihihi

oh first but not least, welcome back to school to me and the others especially to the new incomers students...I hope we can put the name of UiTM to a higher level among the universities...as what our beloved 'dad', Dato' Sahol said..insha Allah..

Semester kali ni agak mencabar dari semester yg sebelumnya...I'm the one who is not the best student in the class, not also the stupid one..but I know, the word of "stupid" is not that bad because from being a stupid or in a proper word we called it as un-clever, it must be turn to a clever one..isn't it? Be positive instead of being negatively..."A success person come from a failure at the beginning", keep this word when you feel wants to giving up. I keep it.

Jatuh bangun..kalah menang..gagal kemudian lulus...ada yg berjaya dan ada yg tidak..itu lumrah dlm proses pembelajaran, same goes to me..I've been experienced it before, till now..kadang-kadang sudah gagal pun ada lagi gagal, kenapa?? am I did not perform well?? or I'm not prepared at all..??? I cried and felt regret to my self..seems wanna quit for this battle..I've giving all my 100% to do it well but seems like I can't manage to get a satisfied result...pity me and I hate my self so much..!!! why they succeed but I'm not..? (sad feeling)

Setiap orang ada kelebihan dan kekurangan masing-masing, mungkin ini ketentuan Illahi bagi aku kegagalan sedangkan aku berusaha sehabis yg mungkin...dan mungkin juga Dia mahu aku tahu, yg aku leka dengan kesenangan dan kelapangan masa yg aku ada sepanjang semester lalu sehinggakan aku suka melengah-lengahkan waktu...membuang masa...tidur...bersosial (jalan dgn kawan2 sekali-sekala sampai lupa assignment masih belum siap, quiz test berderet, due date presentation pun dekat..hmm)...dan yg paling penting, aku lupa Dia yg Maha Pemberi...kejamnya aku, kerdilnya aku..!

Alhamdulillah...syukur, aku masih tidak lupa diri. I still have family who wanna see me success in my future life. I still have friends who always support me and giving me strength to not easily giving up. I still have lecturers who never failed to see her/his student like me that faced low self-esteem in studies. I still have the one who loved me and always remain to stay and say I can do my best like the others. and, I have Allah..the only one who is the best Creator. Result sem lepas tidak lah seteruk mana tapi aku rasa teruk di kalangan rakan-rakan yg lain..dan itu bukan penentu nasib aku pada masa akan dtg sebab peluang untuk menebus kekalahan sentiasa ada..Gagal sekali bukan bermakna gagal selamanya. (feel bless)

This semester, I have 3subject calculation and 5subject theory...I know I can score, yes I can..!!!

To who ever felt down, here are some picture that will built again your low self-esteem. Let's start and begin you new spirit.

take 1

take 2

take 3

"Never give up until you're given out all your very best.

It's better to fail trying than wondering what could have happened if you tried".

-unknown person.

Thank you everybody for keep reading, have a blast day ahead. lots of love.